This session took place in a hotel room in a hot city. JJ and I had met wth Margot in a bar for a drink and then decided to retire for the night. JJ suggested we do something with the camera. I had been begging him to do something for RFPIX for a while now. I had seen pictures and videos of Camille and Gabrielle. I wanted to be a part of this. We had shot something before in the office, very short, but this time I wanted to do something more involved.

I'm not sure if we ever discussed the possibility of showing this to anyone. But the time has come to share this very personal experience.

I look at myself and think back to how I felt at that time, what I was thinking. There wasn't very much light, so the pictures and video have a grainy quality to them. I think it makes it look more authentic. This video is not rehearsed. The whip marks are all real and the sound of the whip is real. JJ used a bullwhip he had bought in Hungary. It hurt like hell.

I hope you enjoy this peak into my training to RFPIX.

I believe in cycles. It's not a 'belief' based on faith in what is not known but a certainty based on observation of some regular phenomena. I was going through one of those cycles and I knew some big changes were coming into my life.

There's a bridge that connects the two oldest neighborhoods of the city where I was born and where I found myself again after 6 years of living a secluded life in Long Island City. I was crossing that bridge one afternoon wondering about a nagging sensation that started weeks before. I was going to meet someone very particular and she was going to make an impact in my life. The question in my mind was if I was going to be open to her and if I was going to recognize her, accept her.

Not long after that walk I received an intriguing e mail. Would I would be willing to produce a docu-drama for a large TV network? Of course I was interested.

Less than a month later I was casting for three North Aerican actors in Bolivia to play doctors. I was looking for very specific types: White Males, 30's, North American English accent. There were two Americans who responded to my call. A third person came knocking on the door, he was not American, he was Irish. There was a lady with him, she was American. We weren't looking for an American woman. That was Jane.